Wednesday, February 24, 2010

One isn't the only lonely number...

One is the loneliest number that you'll ever do,
Two can be as bad as one,
It's the loneliest number since the number one.
(Three Dog Night song lyrics)

I have very little "alone time". But often, I feel very alone. I feel like issues and stresses are thrown at me a little too frequently, and I'm the only one who has to work them out.

If I'm sick? Too bad - must take care of Amelia. Pack her lunch. Get her to school. Check my email. Get some work done.

If Amelia is sick? My life comes to a standstill. I have to shuffle any prior work plans. Bring her to the doctor. Wait for a prescription at the pharmacy. My plans get moved aside.

If the cat is sick and the vet screws up the appointment time? Once again, I do the shuffle dance with all my to-dos. Had a work meeting planned? Well, tough. Just cancel on them for the 18th time in the past few months.

I feel like all the family issues that happen, big or small, are dealt with entirely by ME. All alone. Steve has the "real" job, after all. I'm not blaming him - not at all. His work is very demanding and he is awesome at it. And we need him to continue to be awesome at it so we can get paid. But it just sucks for me.

I'm having a pity party today. It's been a rough day. And I haven't even taken the cat to the dreaded vet appointment yet. My day could get much worse!

Thank goodness for my online mommy friends. At least here, on message boards, and on Facebook, I have someone to talk to. Someone who feels the way I do. Or at least understands.

Thank you, ladies!!!
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